Hi, everyone - I'm new to these forums. :-) I came here because I have a complicated issue (to me, at least) that I can't seem to understand myself. It's not huge, but I'm one of those types of people that like to analyze things and understand what people are trying to get at when they do certain things.

Here's my story....

I've liked a certain guy for a while. He's older than I am by a year. I actually haven't talked to him that much. He's very shy. We were in one class together last year where we didn't talk much then either. I thought that he might have been interested in me, but I wasn't sure. Since he was shy, he wouldn't come right out and SAY it if he was, but he would do these little things like:

• Look at me, and then look away when I would look at him (even when he was talking to other girls). I've caught him staring at me a lot, in games, class, etc.
• He would stare at me down the hall, and then meet my eyes and say "hi" (hey, it was a big thing for me!)
• Wave to me from his car and give a little half smile
• He would do this little annoying thing where he would not smile or anything, but just raise his eyebrows and say something like, "hey"

I thought it was pretty cool until I found out that he had a girlfriend. Then (since I have serious inferiority complexes) I decided that I didn't have a chance. At all. Period. You see, he's not stuck up jock or anything, but in the popular crowd because he plays basketball...and it's not like I'm a nerd, but heaven knows I'm not the most popular girl in school. I'm sort of the academic, all business, 4.0 valedictorian-to-be. < In elementary school I was the nerd > So I just kind of gave up.

I was happy when I saw him this summer at our fair when I was reigning as rodeo queen (and singing the national anthem at the rodeos), and especially when I heard that he broke up with his girlfriend. Then, I saw him on a date with another girl. My heart was broken again.

THEN He started this weird thing at the fair where, he knew I was there (I sat right by him) but he wouldn't look at me or acknowledge my existance at all. At school now, I know he sees me, but he looks away from me and doesn't greet me like he used to - not in his car either, anything. And this has only been in the past couple of weeks. And I still don't know if he's "with" this other girl that he was on the date with or not.

So here are my questions, I know they're probably stupid, but please bear with me

1). What do you think that he's getting at by all of this? Does he just hate me? I have the hardest time understanding guys, especially ones who don't talk. And when I don't understand things it drives me absolutely up a wall!

2). I haven't actually been open at all about how I feel about him. I'm the sort of person that, when I like someone I sort of.....ignore them, because I think that they won't like me (remember my complexes?). I get told I'm good looking sometimes, but I don't really take it to heart. So I really don't know if this boy thinks that I don't like him at all. I just haven't really bothered because I don't think that he'd be interested. Sort of a shyness issue, I guess. Should I let him know that I think that he's cute and that I would like to get to know him, or am I just better off just to get over him and let what's meant to be ... be?

Sorry for the long, unnecessarily complicated post, but if I can get some input and finally decide what to do, so I can quit dwelling on it, I'll become sane again.

Thanks a ton in advance for your help,

Meekanne