Ok when I was 14 I was extremely Depressed Cut myself and Tried to kill Myself By Taking to much pills.

I am 17 now and am getting off probation september 1st and I am out of highschool and I Have to get a Job because My dad calls me a looser and Not normal because my older brother has a job and has never been caught for anything He also tells me Theres something wrong with me and I am going to end up living on the streets. His friends make Jokes towards me because I Painted a friends house for money and they laughed at me because I normally just hang out with friends.

I have only had 2 semi serouis Girlfriends in my life but I am not good looking at all.

I am thinking about Running away after I am off probation Because I just can't stand to be around my dad or step mom because they make me feel like crap,

When I stop and think about my life I almost want to cry because My parents think my siblings are the greatest kids on earth I have 1 older and 1 younger and My dad expects me to be just like my older bro but the thing is I don't Want to I am my own person and I try to tell him about how I feel he ignores me and cracks jokes about it later.


What should I do I am scared that I will end up hurting my self and I have no one in my life I can talk to So thats why I posted this here.