I'm going to sound desperate but that's because I am. I can't stress how badly I need some advice right now.

Please give me some advice on how to cope with this situation, I need help.

I waited all of the summer holidays, without any friends to talk to, waiting to go to a new boarding school, I hated it there so I quickly left, It was an awful experience and even now my parents aren't the same with me, we had to pay £6000 for 2 days.

A week later I got into an amazing school, it was perfect, it might as well have been designed for me. I went for one day, hadn't taken my medication, and I left. I can't think why I would leave, it was perfect for me, but I left, I honestly can't think of why anymore and I have regretted it everyday since...


I now have over a year of solitude in my room, till I can go back to a 6th form in 2011.

I know I deserve this, I brought it on myself, but I wasn't right in the head at the time! It's not an emo, 'oh my sorrow' ordeal its a 'wtf I don't think and react normally to situations and it's ruining my life'.

I am trying but the idea of going through a year by myself is making me go insane. What's worse, and I am not exagerating, I have no friends, literally none, for various reasons, I can honestly say I don't have a single teenage friend.

I'm so desperate right now I'm just staring at the school's website, I'm losing it and I need advice.

I know I sound like I'm whining but that's because I am, I am facing over a year alone in my room, literally! I can't do that, no one can! It makes people go insane.

I need help and advice.

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