dude this is gonna sound so harsh but ive been in that boat

you dont go fishing, catch one fish then go home and never do it again

You have OVER THOUGHT this sooooooo much, like wow bro, i guess when you only have one girl to focus on it gets like that, honestly man, you just need to get out there and meet more girls, you really should, your will get more confident around them and you will meet another one that you will start to like and she will be single this time

If Kaitlyn already has a good bf then you should really let it go, as the old saying goes, there are always more fish in the sea, so go out and socialize, practice makes perfect

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