Sounds like you need help.
Not much advice I can give you.

Some people hate their body. Look at me, I starve myself, don't eat and don't really care what people say about it. Because it's my personal choice. I prefer for you not to do that because it makes you really sick and you don't need that on your chest as it is.

You're going to go through ups and downs. Some days you're going to feel completely fine and then all of a sudden you feel bad. That's normal. Suicide won't get you nowhere but six feet into the ground. I've attempted suicide and felt suicidal for months upon years.

It's a horrible feeling, let me tell you. I had heaps of friends during the middle school stages. I had their back and I thought they had mine. They experienced their own problems and I was there for them. Then I started cutting and they didn't know nor understand. They pushed me away and I got extremely depressed as a result of that and other problems.

I dropped them and dropped school. I gave up, which is what they wanted. High school came around the corner and I was ready to prove those people wrong. I am going to school and have made better friends, people that have the same problems as me in weight and cutting issues.

Some say it's bad to surround yourself around people with the same problems you have but I don't think so. Surrounded yourself around people that understand you. It will make things easier.

I hope you feel better, sweetie.
PM me if you need anything.

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