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Bella Vendetta · 12-04-2007, 08:05 AM

I've tired to forget....but it keeps coming back to haunt me. The things he's (he as in my EX boyfriend) said to me keep playing over in my head like a bad record. I know he apologized even if there was no excuse, but I can't forgive him. I will never look at him in the same way again. I'm afraid he's put permanent scar on me.

I can forgive him for anything else, even letting me go(because that's his loss), except this. I've tired to play nice and try to forgive him, but I've come to the realization the things he said and the names he's called me hurt way too much for me to just let it go.

The problem is every time my mind goes free, what he's done plays over and over until I have a mental breakdown. I've had to stop myself from almost crying in class multiple times. And every time I'm alone in the house I completely loose it.

Not to mention, he thinks I forgave him and that everything between us is okay. It's not okay...and at this point, it might never be. He really needs to know how bad he hurt me, but I don't know how to say it without making him mad.

How would you deal with this?

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