well im new here, just been wandering the net for this type of forum lol

one thing that springs to my mind maybe not with you, but with the subject of pre marital sex on a whole, is if its a personal want, that is not religion etc, maybe its due to a slight insecurity of it? i mean, losing your virginity after marriage would obviously be a very safe and very secure thing, maybe pre marital poses to much of insecurities and un certanties?