H'Okay.
I'd say it's somewhat severe and building up considering it's affecting my moods..and I have a very very short temper.

Let's say there are 5 main problems with me. And these are people. I'm somewhat happy most of the time yet I really feel like the point where I'm just fed up with everyone. I'm going to name these people as numbers because are horrible as some are I don't think they need to be named.

1) Well 1 and me have always had an interesting relationship. He constantly says he loves me and wishes he was with me rather than his current fuck buddy as he so lightly describes her. All I want from this guy is to be friendly like we were before not romantically but like normal... He makes little dates and if I can't make it he won't talk to me for weeks. Even if I give suffice notice - yet I'm supposed to be doing his every whim 24/7? I'm at the point where I just want to get him out of my life yet if I do so this means I'm shutting out a group of my friends. A couple whom I am close with.

2) 2 and I didn't really start talking until we met last year at college. She was considered by most people to be somewhat rude and bitchy but when we did talk (when she felt like it) it was quite fun. I mean me and someone else were the only people who bothered to turn up for arrangements she seemed to organise. Yeah all of a sudden it's like she quit talking to me. I didn't do anything outright to her and she has never given me a reason for why she even stopped talking to me. We were going to host a big party for end of year celebrations and she assured me she was going to come. The day came and I find out not only is she screwing my bf she pretty much changed the details with some people. Now she's recently contacted me again...it's like do I really want you back in my life?

3) 3 and I really don't like each other. We've admitted it - well they did when we had online conversations and whenever I'm near 3 I get really angry. Things that 3 says behind everyone else's back that they aren't game to say in front of other people. Constant harassment until I refused to make any contact with them. 3 has serious issues. They are two faced (as in all nice to me when there is company but if I give the the chance I'm just going to find out they are making bullshit up about me again) Everyone wonders why we don't get along and they just can't see what a freaking manipulative sneaky person 3 is. Whenever I see 3 now I get grilled out for telling 3 of about their indirect snidey behaviour yet people just see them as being "cool" and what not. I'd seriously like it if 3 did not judge me so much based on what they heard. Some of which I wasn't even responsible for.

4) 4 relates to a group I have to deal with at work. My job is to communicate to this group yet everytime they don't get what they want they are nasty abusive and shout all the time. If I have to change my boss's arrangements due to the fact he wants to go get pissed it's not my fault he's so unreliable. I really can't handle them and whatever I do just ends up with them complaining about me for not getting their own way.

5) With 5 and I there hasn't really been a relationship. I don't want to go into details. Yet certain lifestyle choices means that 5 has ended up in a bad health situation. If they keep it up I'm most likely going to end up severely screwed. And I'm going to end up alone again if they die...which is probably mostly likely within the next 1-3 years. And it's going to mess up everyone.

With all these people it's at the point where I really don't feel like being nice to anyone because they don't get it. They laugh and think it's ok. It's not. I'm sick of being a fucking doormat for people and the like.