the thing is that my sister had a child when she was my age and i ended up raising her and i felt like her mother because her REAL mother only wanted her so when ppl came around she could act. i cant get an abortion because i dont think that its right and i will not give it up for adoption because i will not later in life say that i want to know my child NOW when i could have raised it myself and nown it its hole life, he also has a say in things and he feels along with me that we should keep it. the marrage thing my aunt and uncle,his parents,my parents, and me and him think its wrong if we dont get married because then the baby will be around a healthier envierment and it will make it harder for him to "walk out" on us if he ever did decide to think about that. he just turned 18 so he can make more money and i am looking for a job now, he feels that when the baby come i should not be working because he feels that he should be the one that brings in the money because he is a part of mine and will be a part of the babys life and that he wants to see me when he gets home from work every night and not come home to an empty house because im home dduring the day taking care of the baby and then at work at night and because i am going to finish school he feels it would be too much pressure on me if i have to go to school,work, and do things around the house will he only goes to work. I just want to know if its okay to be scared about people i care about to think im a disapointment. we didnt mean for this to happen and we know we have to live with whatever we do for the rest of our lives and thats why we want to make the right one now. also we would be sharing an apartmant with his father, so we would only be paying for half the stuff to make things a little easier, his mother wants really nothing to do with us of the baby, we both have to be a part of this childs life and we feel that we should be together for it than apart.

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~Brandie~