You wouldn't have made a thread if you weren't having mixed emotions.

I loved smoking weed. I got lace weed once, stopped for a while and started back up. I bought my first bowl a few days ago and wanted to try it out. Instead my friend had a blunt and I smoked half of it within minutes. I started freaking out because my mum showed up to pick me up. She knows I do weed but the problem was I just got done smoking it.

I started shaking. My whole body went numb and it was hot below my knees. I was laying in my grandma's bed, crying. She was holding my hand. I started screaming, saying I was scared. I kept having suicidal thoughts and I had a knife in my hand. I couldn't eat with a fork because I kept thinking of stabbing my grandma and other family members.

I had to drink cold water, take a cold shower and eat to get the bad trip to go away.

I suggest thinking of what you really want. Drugs are in control of you when you do them. You don't want to end up like your brother, do you?

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