I have a similar sort of life. My brother has ADHD and is very demanding of my parent's attention. He has been in and out of psychiatric units for about 6 years now, but after he tried to take his life my mum decided to bring him back home. Now life for me is just like walking on egg-shells. I have to be careful with what I say and do, and i can't even hold a proper conversation with my mum anymore because he is constantly asking her things and taking her away.

Another thing happened when I was a child. My mum was 18 and married a man who became abusive to her in a bad way, he used to beat her and rape her daily. Thats how I came about =[ (knowing that's how I was made really hurts btw...) And now I have serious hate towards myself because I'm scared that when she looks at me she sees 'Him' looking back at her.

All of this stress over the years had given me crippling depression, somedays I can't leave the house and I, like my brother, have been inside a psychiatric unit. Luckily my depression is a bit better than it was but it is still very much there.

What I suggest you do is try talking to someone at school (as that helped me) most schools have like a 'mentor' or someone like that. Tell them about everything which is worrying you and they can offer help and advice. What's more, its completely confidential unless you confide something which suggests you could be at risk (from yourself or someone else).

Also...try opening up to your mum about how you feel, It really will help and I know its hard. But just try, she needs to see how everything is affecting you.

xxx

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