no of course its not stupid.
its very difficult to handle with such a situation.
u must have been very close so its totally normal
u just have to try to move on with ur life...
and try to do things that u like, and forget about it.
its difficult of course, but its not stupid.
it just means u loved her a lot.
and sometime, u will get over it.
but dont make urself feel worse saying its stupid.
just try to move on..

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