she keeps saying she wants the jamie she meet at the begging, i have changed a lot ince then but its confusing, because i know what i am doing, i am completely aware of how i act, but i cant help it and i still do it, i am possesive, controlling, angry and violent, and its only starte since i have had my relationship with her, my first one. she knows that i was a ncie boy at the begging, i didnt swear or anything, but i have just turned into something horrible, and i am aware, but i need some help trying to fix it