I'm really sorry to hear all this - it's terrible and I don't know how I would be able to cope.

One thing I can definitely say to you is that you should not think of suicide, it is the coward's way out and every day that you're alive should be a blessing.

Stop cutting - it doesn't help and it's bad for you, the more you do it the worse it gets so I strongly suggest you stop right NOW.

Screw the girlfriend - she obviously wasn't worth it if she thinks doing drugs is cool and dumped you just cause you're not doing the same, you're better off without her.

I'm also sorry that your family are so far away, is there any other way of contacting them, possibly? Phone? E-mail?

If you need to talk about anything just PM me, it's fine.

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