hi, well for a start think seriously love is avery strong word it is thrown about far too much like it means nothing, how can yu love someone youve barely been with. Yes you may like him and want to be close to him but love is something that develops with time through spending time, getting close and being around the person, you say you both IM frequently but if its not really anything about liking each other then he most likely just sees you as a freind and you can and will love your freinds but its totaly different to being in love with smeone. Im 18 and have been in an on off relationship for two years and trust me its hard work. Thinking you love him and wouldnt cope wit him being with someone else or whatever seems a bit far, sure if you like him then you will be a bit gutted and feel maybe even rejected becaus ehe chose someone else and not you. If you have seriously liked him for this long and you relaly felt liek it was love then you would want nothing more than to tell him and know he felt the same. Relationships will never be eas but if you cant even tell him how you feel then what do you have? Your feelings could be totaly one sided but you wont know because you havent asked him and you havent told him. The best advice would be to just ask him straight out who he likes and how he sees you, if he sees you only as a freind then thats ok you can be his freind and at least then you will know where you stand and you can move on to fancy someone new, someone who feeels the same way and then you can get excited and have butterflies and get nervous when he calls and texts you a hundred times a day. When your young life should be fun, you shoudnt be stressing about someone who seems soo distant. Also do you have a ternch coat? Cuz if you do then maybe it is you he likes and he could have been dropping hints. Good Luck with whatever happens hope it al goes well