im quite shy and dont often say much when i first meet people usually keeping myself to myself, so i dont make friends easy.

i left highschool 3 years ago and at first i kept in contact with my old friends quite well, we live quite close to each other so we would all get together over the holidays or weekend.

ive lost contact with almost all my friends, being from an all girls highschool most of us didnt know how to act around guys, so some of us become really loose, sleeping with any guy no matter his age or marital status, i disapprove of that sort of thing, i mean if a girl wants to sleep around then thats her choice but to start sleeping with other girls' bfs thats just not nice.

2 of my friends havent fallen into that sort of bf stealing hobby and we still get along great, but lately ive become the backup. when they got nothing to do they try to get me to go to theirs to play games even when i tell them i cant as i got important coursework to hand in and that ill come over in 2 days if they r still up to it. but since i said no ive been completely blanked, when i see them in the arcade they carry on doing whatever their doing and ignore me.

my bf tells me i should just leave them and that their r just waste but, after being friends for like 7 years i cant just settle with being the rejected backup.

my bf friends are alright but i know that they only really talk to me (once in while) cos im going out with a close friend of theirs. im really lonely and get really depressed somedays, im leaving the college im in, and cos of an accident at work i cant do much sport or activities so i cant do most of the groups in my area.

should i just forget my disowning friends or try and become the backup they once liked?