Hi,

First of all I'd like to say hello cause this is my first post. my names Edd, im 14 and I've never had a relationship or come close for that matter. I'm half, half (chinese and western) and Im really small for my age and year group. I get pushed around a lot by the bigger guys and a few occasions when I get racial comments thrown at me.

The problem is, is that I think that girls are not interested with me is because of my size and possibly race. The reason i've suddenly come up with this is because i've seen a girl i like and unfortunatly shes in the year above however shes only a few inches taller than me so not that bad. She looks at me a lot and smiles and I smile back but even worse she has a boyfriend 3 years older than her (four years older than me). She seems special, shes definitely beautiful and I hear she has a great personallity from what i gathered from friends who are in my year, so she seems very special.

I just feel like if i get involved with her maybe her boyfriend will try to have a go at me and i can barely hold off boys in my own year, nevermind those 4 years older than me. However, once again the tables turn her boyfriend leaves school in 3 days and only comes back for exams, and after that he goes off to uni, so i could have a chance there.

I also feel that because im small girls see me more of a cute "baby" than the boyfriend status.

So yes, the first time, it seems really scary to me, I have completely no idea what I should do to possibly go out with her. I hope someone can help and thankyou, it would be very much appreciated


Edd