If you set the date and aren't willing to seek advice, there is no need to talk about it my dear friend. I have faith your life can change, you have had a rough life, I will give you that, but suicide is never the answer. Yeah, I understand you don't want anyone trying to convince you this, but you DID post this in a help section, it is to be expected. =]

You wish to talk about it for a reason, even if you do not realize it just yet.