i think the reason you came on here is your looking for a reason not to kill yourself. im not gonna try talk you out of it im just gonna talk to you and see if this is what you really want. im 17. im irish. i tried to overdose before. i wasnt ready to die tho. i came onto msn and told someone and got help. point is as you said you havent got much family left and thats why your here on this forum asking us for opinions and wanting to talk. if i were you i would consider everything in your life. like what your family and your best friend would have wanted you to do. like what your sick uncle wants you to do. like i said im not gonna try talk you out of it. the choice is yours. i just think that if you came here to talk about your decision then you should seriously think about reconsidering it. go somewhere quiet and just think about everything. in the end when your about to do it you will know whats right. if you really wanna die then it will be no problem. but if you dont then you wont be able to do it