I'm not trying to talk you out of something you intend to go through with but hear me out.

Have you seen the movie "the bucket list." 2 blokes given devastating diagnosis' make a list of all the things they want to do before they "kicked the bucket." Imagine doing this.
Write your own list.
Follow your list.
How did that feel?
In my honest opinion, it can be the little things that add up and make life worth living.
But hey, "im just laying it out for y'all to play it out."

At the least, should you decide enough is enough may you go in peace.

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