ok so sorry to return to this old thread but I need advice now more than ever.
a week or so ago this topic came up in conversation between me and my boyfriend. He asked how I felt about "doing something for him". I really want to make him happy, and he's done so much for me I really think I owe it to him. So I made it up in my mind that I'd try and give him a handjob soon.
I'm seeing him today and I'm pretty positive this is a perfect day to try.
I accidentally upset him yesterday, ruined his day and such and I really want to make it up to him. We're spending the day together and I'm sure there will be an opportunity.

I'm totally freaked out though! I've never even seen his cock (or anyone's up close for that matter) and even though I understand the general concept I have no idea how to get started. It seems so bizzare to just reach down and start grabbing something I've never even seen -_-'

any advice on the subject would be GREATLY appreciate (serious advice tho, please?)
thanks