I don't honestly know what I wanted to solve ..
Just wanted to get it all off my mind.

I wouldn't mind going to summer school, just my parents getting pissed off at me is what I hate.

I don't cut myself. I honestly don't think that would solve anything (how.. odd, huh).

I don't know I guess I thought of suicide as a way of escape from all this, to get out of the situation..

But I don't know why, but I just realized that once your gone your gone..

Its almost like I have two different "me"s. some times I think that killing myself is dumb, sometimes "I let myself think about it"..
Its really odd.. and probably doesn't make one bit of sense.

I wish I could have a bit more controll over using the computer.
I've tried before but I just get frustrated when I get stumped on something thing put it down and go back on the computer, and say I'll do it later.

About that relationship.. I don't really remember why it ended, I think it was because at the time my intrest in being in a relationship declined a good bit and I stopped saying the nice things and stuff that I was doing at the begining of it, I just kinda "went cold" in my relationship, wasn't really a part of it. My "ex girlfriend" (she'd hit me if she saw me writing this cause she refuses to call it a relationship) was starting to drag me down, and she wasn't really who she seemed to be once everything unfolded, to me at least.. Maybe I'm just delusional or crazy.

And if I didn't answer all your questions.. I'll re read it and think..