Whoa Atiila man.. that is some deep stuff, that really helped me myself tbh, thanks for that!

Me personally, I'm in grade 11 too, I go to an almost all boy school, 7-10 all boys, 11-12 co-ed. I got over the whole not-getting-a-girlfriend thing sort of last year and this year. Thing is my 6th grade crush came to my school this year, and its the first time I've seen her in like 4 years (oh and she came to the formal with me last year), I thought my feelings for her were gone, guess not, they are still here, actually my feelings are kind of different now, somehow I truly feel that I want to be with her, and I don't wanna ask her out during year 11 and 12 because relationships within the same school seem to fall apart imo. Id rather wait after during college.

Man, who cares about a girlfriend now? Whats the likelyhood its gonna last while your still in school, I mean isn't it gonna be better if you wait after school, where there are less confines, you are somewhat more mature and at least while you don't have a commitment to anyone, you can put your full effort into your school worth and ethic (or try too ^.^, videogames, sport and piano are my main distractions from work, not girls)

I reckon, just try and make the best of your situation at the moment, I'm sure things will start to look better.

The happiest people in the world don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything.