I know exactly how you feel. Honestly hun, you are NOT ugly. I know how hard it is to gain confidence, but it is worth the effort, especially since you are not ugly! Like Penguin said, if you don't believe yourself, believe us, we have no reason to lie to you about it. This is going to sound a little mean, but I think you should see someone. You sound like you may possibly have BDD or Schizophrenia, both of which are serious.