Uh, it's time for a professional. There's nothing stupid kids (myself included) on the internet can do for you. You need medication, perhaps cognitive therapy, etc. If you are participating in therapy/taking your meds/trying to get better, there is no reason for you to be locked up.

I'm sorry about your dad. I lost my mom when I was little, which really isn't the same because I hardly remember her, but I know how it feels to kind of be orphaned.

Get rid of the boyfriend. There is no reason to put up with emotional manipulation.

Why do you hate your mother?

Also, if you really do have bipolar disorder you should not be prescribed anti-depressants; anti-d's increase the likelihood and intensity of manic episodes.

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