Okay, so here's the deal.

For about a year now, my parents have been fighting on and off. My dad's been venting by getting drunk, cussing, and disappearing to bars (and, I think, strip clubs) while my mom is out partying with her friends until 5am in the morning. My little brother and I are seriously depressed about it.

Anyways, they'd been perfect on Father's Day, complimenting, saying "I Love You", hugging, etc. But today...

When I came home, my dad's words were slurred and crashing into each other. He walked in a funny kind of way... kind of like how an old woman hobbles...

While I was upstairs on the phone, I started hearing screaming. Since my room is right above their's I could hear my mom accusing my dad of doing drugs and setting a bad example. My dad left, and I don't know of he'll come back. I'm worried about him. If he was drunk, or high, I'm scared he might crash or get put into jail.

I know the divorce is coming, but I try not to think about it. I don't know what I'll do when they finally go to court. My mom is always so snappy, and she's extremely grumpy at times (which is most of the time). She has a talent for leaving nasty bruises on my brother and I when we get into trouble. My dad's more gentle. He smokes and drinks heavily, and I don't want to be exactly influenced by that. My brother worships him. My dad gets drunk a lot, and speeds (about 30 - 50 above the limit). He cusses nonstop and I know he's got some porno tapes hidden around the house.

So, I don't know which I should choose. I'm not very social with either of them, and I can't seem to say the right things when I try and explain what I'm feeling and thinking to them. I'm scared I might be in serious trouble with one of them if I choose the other.

So... what do I do?!?!