i dunno, I feel like whoever I talk to whether it be a friend or someone in my family all I get is disrespect towards me. Like you know how in wolf packs there's the alpha wolf and then way down at the bottom there's that other wolf (I think it's called the omega) and it basically gets trashed on constantly. I feel like that's my role in almost every social situation. I don't want to be above people, just equal with them. It makes me really sad because I try really hard to respect people and it makes me feel like I should kill myself a lot because I feel like no one would care if I died and as much as I want to prove them wrong and keep living, I can't take it much more because I feel so lonley (sp?) and I've lost a lot of respect for myself and I don't know how to get it back.
(I'm sorry that was such a run on sentence).

Does anyone have any advice on how I can help myself get out of this role and get some respect??? Thank you so much!!!

p.s. I swear I'm not imagining it and I'm so sorry if I seem really winny (sp?) or needy. Thank you!