thats sounds unhealthy darling, maybe you should find a therapist? i never suffered with weight issues, so i really cant relate to what youre going through, but i do however still have a battle with depression. it wasnt until last month that i finally talked my parents into finding me a therapist. ive been feeling a lot better than i have in a good while-i think if you find someone who knows what their talking about and will listen and encourage you-you'll be able to be healthy again.