Well, sorry if this is long, but it's worth reading. I am going through something right now. Well, my dad just started a new job, and I'm afraid he's going to lose it, because before he got this job, he's been out of work for six-seven months. I am trying to be at peace with God, but I don't see any improvement. Also: I've been addicted to gay pornography for three years, and I'm still addicted, and I told my parents, in February, thinking I was going to quit it, but obviously, I didn't, and they don't know that I'm still doing it. I want to be free from this, but I don't know. Now, it's causing me depression, and I feel like God has left me, and I feel like if I give up on him, that my dad would lose his job because of me, so I don't know what to do.