well adriane theres not much i can say. . . but well my older sister was rapped when she was 14 by 5 men and after that well it made her strong she doesnt think about it anymore , now she is 20 yrs old so i guess the only thing you can hold on to is time i know it sounds dumb but in time you will eventually become stronger. and for the mean time dont think in suicide or any of that crap hang in there ok!!!