To me it seems like you have manic depression. The proper name is bi polar. You might want to get that checked out before it gets worse.

I know where you are coming from. There are days where my blade says in it case and I feel perfectly fine. And then there are days where I sit in the cold shower for hours slicing my legs apart. So, I understand. About the suicide thing, try attempting it about 25 times. Seriously it's not even funny to count that high. To these day I still try to achieve killing myself. It's hard but it makes you stronger.

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