I'm really scared. I had this horrible nightmare and it has to due with the Chainsaw Massacre. And I blame Alex, haha. Because we were on the phone and we were talking about how that movie scared both of us.

So, it started out at my house. We knew the chainsaw massacre guy and he brought home a goat and a few dead people. He laid them on the table and just kept them there. I was being nice because I didn't want him to cut me up. My cousin, mum and me were in it. Plus Ty and Link. So, he laid them on the table and went away for awhile. He then came back with the chainsaw and began his work, slicing and ripping apart the body parts. My mum was washing dishes and the chainsaw guy got mad in the front of the house. I looked at my mum and said, "Cindy and me make it out" meaning we make it out alive. I looked out of the corner of my eye and the chainsaw went off. My mum stood there as my cousin and me ran. We ran in the house and reached the back door. I looked out the window and saw Ty and Link. Then all of a sudden the chainsaw guy appeared in front of them. I yelled at them and they disappeared. I walked to the door and the chainsaw guy was in front of me and he brought his chainsaw to my face.

I then woke up and got scared. I saw my mom in front of me and let out a scream type of moan. So, she looked at me all funny and I told her the story. I'm still scared. I'm so busting Alex for this one.

Anyway, I've been really sleepy for the past few days. And my sleeping pattern is so fucked up that it isn't funny anymore. So, that's why I haven't tried to get on the computer because I can't sit up for a long time without getting sleepy.

I'm confused about a lot of things as well. I get sick of people telling me that I need to look out for myself, I seriously hate it. I need to worry about other people as well. Which I normally do but you get my point. I know some people are upset plus mad at me and they have every right. I'm trying to let people decide for theirself. Like that works.

<3 Taaaaalk.

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Whoa. That dream sounds fucking scary. I have one like that too, only not exactly obviously. I won't bore you with details.

Anyway....I totally miss you Faithy. How are you doing?

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Why do we play into this motive?
What are you waiting for tonight?
You wonder, you wait and you can't get through this without a line.

That is pissy. Cool but pissy. Not the fact you're fam and friends were cut up but the chainsaw.

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It was seriously. My mom wanted me to go to the store with her and I shook my head furiously at her. And she asked why and I told her that I don't want to look behind me and see the chainsaw guy in his beat up fucking truck.

I miss you, doll. I'm doing okay, well that's a lie. I'm doing amazing. I have about fourteen hours until I can call my baby. Snuggle! Yes, that's Alex.

How are you doing?

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Oh god no. I hate chainsaws with a burning passion. I even hate when my grandfather uses one because who knows if he might go crazy and slice me up. Plus I had a bad, very bad experience with a chainsaw when I was younger.

I was in my friends car and I looked behind me. And there was a chainsaw. He picked it up and started teasing me with it.

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Do you miss me? Really? Well, it is good that you are amazing, cause you deserve it, yes you do.
*sighs*
You call Alex and you never call me? Lol, he's your boyfriend of course you call him.

Anyway, I'm okay. I wrote stuff on my shoes today cause I was just that bored. It was fun. One thing says "I <3 Fay", for your information. In fucking Sharpie cause I was writing all this random stuff cause I got a new Sharpie. But now I'm rambling, so...yeah.

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Why do we play into this motive?
What are you waiting for tonight?
You wonder, you wait and you can't get through this without a line.

dats so suckyish, understandable dat ur scared. mhm

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I mean, I do miss you. Like I seriously do.

You know, that makes me smile so big. And yes, I should call you. But I'm too scared to talk over the phone. I hate my voice. I love sharpie. I seriously do. I get in trouble for writing on my walls, skateboard, shoes and face all the time.
I'm scared. Hold me!

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Sure you miss me. Whatever.
You should call me. But whatever. I see how it is. =[
I love Sharpie too.

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Why do we play into this motive?
What are you waiting for tonight?
You wonder, you wait and you can't get through this without a line.

You know what, hmph.
I do fucking miss you, doll. I miss you more than Brenden misses Ryan. So, there.
I should. That would be awesome.
Not as much as me. And Sharpie loves me more. So HA!

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aww *hugs* i remember 1 tym i had a really bad dream/nightmare woteva, anywayz i woke up n i was so scared i couldnt move. seriously. i was dere 4 ages scared shitless calling my mum but she was asleep.

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I've had one of those nightmares where you can't move. I remember someone was coming after me and I just stood there in the mist of it all. I hate those fucking dreams.

Then one time I woke up in the bathtub screaming. How I got there still makes me wonder.

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i h8 dem 2.

hmm weird. u must of been sleep walking or sumfing.

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Embrace the fear and beat it to a pulp and you won't be scared any longer. Use a chainsaw and it may help.

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You can't miss me more than Bren misses Ry!! That's..that's a lot of missing.
You should. But you don't. So it's your fault, really.
Sharpie loves me more than you, for Pete Wentz's sake.

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Why do we play into this motive?
What are you waiting for tonight?
You wonder, you wait and you can't get through this without a line.