So I didnt know where to put this, so here is as good as any. I warn you it imay be long.

So things have been piling up emotionally for me lately. I mean they just keep piling and piling and piling up. Starting with most recently, I spent 2 days, cleaning out the old trailer that my mom used to live in. The woman is a slob. I love her but shes a slob. It took 2 DAYS to clean out a trailer. With 3 people the first day, it took from 11 am to 6 pm until I had to leave, then we got there at 8 am and finished at 1:30 pm. So that has been stressful.

On top of that I am starting to worry about m mental health. Lately I have had crazy mood swings. Like I went from extremely pissed off for little reason, to hyperactively cheerful in the period of 10 minutes, then was feeling depressed like 20 minutes later. I am hoping it is just stress triggering crazy moods but with a history of mental illness in my family I am afraid it is smething worse.

I recently ran into the guy that sodomized me, and I wasn't prepared for it. I have had a harder time coping with it all since then, not that I was doing well before but it just got worse after I ran into him.

Then on top of all of this, I am getting ready to go off to college, and I lst a hell of a lot of finacial aid so I dont know how I am going to pay for it, but there is no way I am going to get stuck working retail/factory for minimum wage for the rest of my life. So I have to go to college.


Blah... Why is it when it rains it pours? Yes I know things could be worse, but right now I feel like I am about to explode if something elses stressful occurs.

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Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer. You know you want to read it.

poor girl

*hugs you*

thanks..

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"Penguins. Lovely." - Edward in Eclipse

Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer. You know you want to read it.