I need help with figuring stuff out. First let me tell you about myself, I'm 19 years old, I've only had one girlfriend and it was very short lived. I've had a one night stand with this gril when I was in Europe (I was 17) so I'm not a virgin.

Usually I can be very smoothe with girls in terms of flirting, I just think I must be either a coward or really bad at choosing my crushes (either they already had boyfriends or one was super crazy conservative and was the kind of girl that wanted to marry the first guy she dated....when I found this out I stopped pursuing her). I'm also too nice for my own good, I have trouble saying no to people when they ask me for help. My love life is like a bad comedy. Or maybe more like a tragedy. Actually it's a little of both.

Recently I started working at a new place and I met this girl. She seemed to like me, she would always throw smiles at me. I didn't act as I should have right then and there because for some reason I can only flirt and be suave with girls that I don't have a crush on. Anyway, her best friend has a huge crush on me, and I mean she is basically throwing herself at me but I'm not attracted to her. This is part of the reason I didn't ask the girl I like out sooner.

Anyway, though she is still really nice to me when we are together I have no idea what she thinks about me since I keep acting like an idiot around her (and only her) <example: I don't know what to say sometimes so I either don't say anything or I rant about stupid stuff>. Today I asked her if she wanted to catch a movie by phone, bad luck for me she was with 2 of her friends so it turned from a conversation of me asking her out to lets ALL go see a freakin movie. She said she would discuss it with her friends and call me back. Hour goes by and I call her. No answer. Basically didn't get a phone call and I'm kinda miffed because I had other stuff to do tonight that I didn't do because I was waiting for her phone call.

All in all, I think there is something wrong with me. I can't sleep, I'm eating alot less, because all I can think about is her. I have no idea if she likes me. My whole life I seem to be attracted to the girls that I can't get, hell I even want her more after the whole not calling me thing. I don't think I've ever liked someone this much. My other crushes and even my ex where kind of purely sexual. For the most part at least.

I've been kind of depressed since I met her, I really don't like myself at the moment because I see I could have worked things alot better.

I came to this forum because I have no idea what to do. Any advice is welcome.

BTW, there's a rumor she had a fling with the asst. manager of the store, who though a nice guy, freakin grosses me out just thinkinng about it (he's a tall skinny white guy that's 6 years older than her). I don't know if it's true, I thought it wasn't but they are awefully good friends so I might be wrong.

Oh, and I have not problem with quitting my job, in fact I'm planning on doing it soon but for financial reasons (better job).

wow thats quite a comlicated situation im totally confused lol
but if uve been depressed since u met her, so i guess u should let her know how u feel and what u think about her
its better than doing nothing and watching her being grabbed by other guy
my advice is just go for it...theres nothing wrong of giving it a try
maybe it works =)
at least u let her know what u feel inside your heart rather than keeping your feeling
u will feel relieved once u say it out