im not trying to be shallow but every guy i meet

i like picture him and me together for a split second

like i picture us having sex or making out with them and i almost throw up a little bit

theyre so unappealing

idk if its cause im not over my ex or what

and no im not into girls. theyre not ugly or anything. ive met some cute guys lately but every time i picture myself with them i feel sick/uneasy.

they are all so dull. so boring, so VANILLA if you know what i mean. there is nothing to them. no edge, no appeal. theyve got nothing witty or interesting to say. their personalities fucking suck. jesus christ ive never noticed but most guys are incredibly boring. most people too. i just keep meeting people and being bored by them.

fuck i think im like turning asexual

Sorry little miss special.

this

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I actually feel the same way these days about girls.. I'm pretty convinced I like girls, I was so tormented by it that I tried fooling around with a guy to see if THAT was the reason, and I didn't enjoy it at all.

So I think this is a real feeling, it may have something to do with depression/isolation/drug abuse (without knowing anything about you) because that's what happened to me, I think. Spent so long depressed and under the influence that life's pleasures just don't mean much anymore.

You have to try just accepting people as fallible and try being human, which means interacting with others. They can't be the source of your happiness, and once you stop having expectations of others in a social setting it gets easier.

Go after the crazy dudes if you want a more complex personality. You also might want to after shy dudes, if they are shy it might mean they have a secret.

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Try meeting people in uncommon places... they'd certainly be more interesting if anything. Or straight up weird, idk...

lol

I think you ought to take a respite from wanting to meet someone.

maybe you have really high standards

Sorry we can't all be as beautiful as you, OP.

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Unhelpful and proud of it.

^ LOL

Ffs why won't it let me at least post 'lol' all in caps by itself.. gay. < I had to write that just so it would let me..

im not being shallow i just have a hard time like picturing myself with them and like for some reason i feel disgusted...

atleast im being honest with my own disgust of myself lol

Live a little and let go.