So, ive known this guy since i was young, (im 19, hes 23) and over the past couple of years we started talking more via text and aim, sometimes talking on the phone cuz we live 2.5 hours away...

he visited me this weekend at school and we pretty much were with each other all the time...flirting a lot...he got jealous actually when i talked to my other guy friend...we slept in the same bed both nights and just ended up making out and fooling around a little.

*keep in mind that this was the first time we kissed or did anything*

When we were laying in bed, I forget what I said...but i mumbled something and he thought i said "i have a crush on you"..and i said no i didnt say that, and he said "good, cuz that would be weird"...and i said "Why??"...and he goes.."cuz youre young..and im old" all awkwardly....but he doesnt seem that old to me, it made me really sad hearing that from him.

it hurt me because we basically act like a couple whenever we see each other, which is only like once every couple months...for example...getting jealous when we talk/ look at other people, kiss, hold hands sometimes...

BUT there was also alcohol involved...and we get much closer when we drink, because i think that its an excuse to say what you want and be affectionate/ intimate without the awkwardness..

and he said something about how he loves being single so he doesnt stress about a girlfriend, but before we kissed he said he hadnt hooked up with a girl in a year and a half, which i actually do believe because he is really shy and doesnt make a move on girls ever..but he finally got the balls to kiss me and we made out for 2 hours straight, no lie

i just dont understand why he can act this way...and then say that it would be weird if i liked him..it just really confuses me, because we act like a typical couple haha..and do you think 19 and 23 is a big age difference?

19 and 23 is no biggy, my sister has a boyfriend who's 24 and she was 19 at the time now 20, but no it was a pathetic excuse to say your youug, because your practically an adult anyway.

It's a bit risky what your doing without stating the lines/rules. You should talk to him and ask him where you are with him , is it just a bit of fun every once in a while which means you are free to date other people, are you commited to him, or what...

we're not commited, but he asks me if i hook up with other guys...and gets really jealous if i flirt with other guys, but were not exclusive...and i ask him about other girls too, we can see other people..but i dont want to, and recently when i was going to kiss another guy i felt guilty like i was cheating on him, but then i remembered we werent together.
But the problem is, we're both extremely shy and are scared to talk about things...

It seems like you want one thing and he wants another, and you're getting mixed signals from it, even though your both shy, it would probably help if you talked, maybe through aim or whatever would be easier for you