Alright so where do we start?
Okay, lets begin before christmas break.
I'd been working for about a month, at job at my school, a lunch time/ after school program, and I work with the younger kids.
So I'd started to develop a crush on a co-worker, and I made myself ignore it, and focused on another guy, the one I'd chosen to focus on after my most recent break up.
End of the break, and back to work, the crush came back, and with a vengeful hate for the fact that I'd ignored it. I didn't even trip, I got tackled at the knee's.
I realized that my intent focus on the other guy was just so that I wouldn't have to deal with the pain of the break up.
This guy from work completely opened my eyes though, and has changed me, though he doesn't know it.
I'm no longer always depressed ( only thing keeping me down is bad stuff at home, which will soon change)
and I've even been helping my other friends find the light switch they couldn't find in their own dark room.
But, see, there's an age gap, which is the reason I ignored it in the first place, due to something I saw my friend go through a few years ago.
But then I realized I was just being ignorant and stereotyping all age gaps, when I was born out of one.
So I tossed that aside and I've begun pursuing what my heart wants so badly.
Now my issue is, I've only been in 3 relationships, and I've always been the pursued, never have I had to ask.
I came up with a plan on how to get him to go to the movies with me, but, I'm so scared of getting turned down, that I'm even more scared that I won't go through with it.
Any advice on how I can get over this?
Or any advice in general?