So I got a job about a month after I turned 16. I work as a server at a small resturant, and the only reason I got the job was because my sister used to work there, and the manager pretty much heard that her sister wanted a job, and hired me right off the bat.


I did notice that I thought he was cute when I first started working there, he reminded me of my ex-boyfriend looks wise, which also pissed me off at the same time. I always loved working with him, I usually would catch myself starring at him, but I passed it off, I denied it as best as I could. I even made myself have a crush on another kid there in an attempt to make it go away. I still remember going in there to eat, with a friend, after I told her about having a crush on a kid that worked in the kitchen there. When I kept starring over there she would giggle and say "Stop starring at David!" but I knew... I wasn't starring at him... I was starring at someone else...


I finally did admit it to myself, ironically, Valentine's Day weekend. Not because of anything romantic, but because my Service Trainer, and best friend there, suddenly got fired, and that wall was gone. That's when I really realized that I had feelings for my manager, and knowing that I did made it easier to come to work without my ST. It gave me someone to make happy. But things got harder... when I finally thought I had settled, the girl who had moved from production to service told me everything about him. How big of a card-carrying pervert he was, how he hires younger girls so he can get into their pants, and how he just has an effect on women. It's worse, I just can't describe it, how I felt when I found all of this out. I had a breakdown the night after that at work, and freaked the other manager out.


But for some reason, that didn't make me forget about it. I kept it in the back of my mind, I tried to make myself hate him, but I couldn't. I didn't want too. I almost just wanted to get into his pants too. I still don't know if I just keep telling myself that to keep from freaking out though.
But finally, the infatuation got to far for me. I wasn't one of those girls that liked dancing around a crush like that. Hell, before the whole thing I had like no sex drive whatsoever. I had it all planned out in my mind, there's 3 ways that he could have responded: If he responded negetivaly, and freaked out on me, I'd realize he was just a jerk, and get over him; if he just was ok with it, I will have gotten it off my chest, and would feel better about it; then, if he was receptive of the idea... I didn't really have a problem with that... or so I thought. I wrote down all my feelings in a note, and before I left work one night I asked him to come into the back with me and gave it to him. He read it, he was ok with it. My self-confidence soared, I couldnt believe I had gotten the courage to do it. But still in the back of my mind... I had wanted something to happen...
But.. that didn't last long. When I came home from school the next day, I got on Myspace and checked my messages. Hmm... I have a message from him? I thought it would be him telling me off or something. Nope... it was him telling me how he thought my picture was pretty... and how he had had a very... risque dream about me last night. The only thought that went through my mind when I read that was "wat".


And it's all gone from there... I don't know if it's gone downhill or uphill. This whole situation feels like one big dream... but I'm not sure if it's a nightmare yet. I gave him my cellphone number and he texts me all the time. One night at work he was texting me while he was drunk... another night he was texting me while we both were working, and wow, that was the night that I discovered, he REALLY does have a dirty mind. I also remember that night before I left... I hugged him... it was the first time a guy had ever touched me. I've never even held a guys hand before, and I loved the feeling.


Just this past Friday... while I was on my way to work, he texted me and asked me if I wanted to come over to his apartment for a little bit before work. I said sure, and after he showed me around his apartment, we hugged each other for at least 10 minutes, and before I left, I got my first kiss... and later that night at work I think I had an anxiety attack... I'm not sure why either...


I just don't know what to do. He's 27 and I'm 16. He's actually being transfered soon, so I guess it would make it a little less wrong. I can barely look at anyone at work because of all this. I'm scared of what would happen if everyone found out, and I always feel like they all know. Then my sister, she hates him, she's always talking about if she ever hears about him doing anything with me she'd castrate him. I don't even know what I want out of this... at first I thought I wanted action, then I thought I just wanted a close friend... now I'm scared my feelings are getting to strong... I know I can't fall in love with him. I'd love for this all to work out, but it won't. I know I should have told him to stop, but I liked it.... I liked the attention... hell I still keep thinking about what happened Friday night and get shivers because of how good it all felt...
I just don't know what to do, I know this is all going to end in a fuckstorm... for the past month I can't sleep, I can barely sleep. I'm starting to have panic attacks at work....


So if anyone got this far through my fucked up situation, thanks for reading all of it, please... I don't know what the fuck I'm doing....

First off, I read it all.
And no wonder no one has responded.
That was hella long, girl.

And the fact that he is 27 and you are 16 puts are strain on everything. I know you have feelings for him, but you need to worry less about your feelings, and worry more about what's best for you. You have heard that this guy has a bad rep. Your own sister doesn't like him, and other people at work thinks that he "hires girls to get in there pants." Don't make yourself one of those girls. He is preying on your "feelings" for him, and you could wind up hurt.

I've actually been in the same situation, except I was 15 and he was 26.
It felt nice (to clarify, we didn't have sex), but as I'm aging I realize what a fucking mistake it was even talking to him, and I'm stuck regretting it and feeling guilty about the whole thing.

With someone as old as him, and as young as you, you're more than likely going to be the one getting hurt and you're never going to forget the old man who wanted to try your innocence.

I think you should get yourself out of that situation before it develops into something more. He's 26 and is inviting a 16 year old girl into his apartment and kissing her.. something just doesn't click in my mind that this is ok. Next time you go over there he could attempt to do something else. His reputation doesn't necessarily have to be true but judging from your story it seems pretty believable. Trust your gut, if you sense something is wrong then odds are it is.

If he begins pressuring you, or you feel pressured to do something more you could always quit and come back after he transfers.

I agree with The Wolf. Honestly... I would stop with this as soon as possible.

i think the best thing to do is leave your job and just find a new place to work at..i can see why you would be attracted to him but if your own sis is telling you how much of a bad person he is you should just stay away..and the age difference is way 2 drastic...he might be telling you that he cares about you but if your co-workers are telling you the he's "hires girls just to get in their pants" you really shouldn't trust what he says. As hard as it might be to get over him, its whats best for you. i really hope things work out for you..and please try not to stress so much over the situation...just try not to talk 2 him anymore, unless its for work related things..and if possible just find a new job so you get your mind off of everything.