Hey everyone,

Some of you will remember that I was an active member here a few months ago (aswell as being a Magazine Editor and Head Radio DJ).

Some of you will also remember that I split up with my girlfriend, Becky. Well basically, here's the whole story of our friendship/relationship. I was getting emotional earlier, so I let it all out. It's quite personal, be warned.

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The Story of James Bold and Rebecca Clulow.
2nd June 2006 - 10th January 2008.

In the Summer of 2005, (Year 8 going into Year 9) I fancied Becky like loads. She kind've liked me back, but nothing happened. After fancying her for about 2 months, she was in a competition singing (she's amazing), and when she sung, I fell in love. No exaggeration. Unfortunately, she didn't feel the same way, and so we carried on just being best best mates.


On the 1st January 2006, she got together with my best mate of the time, Scott Roberts. I was heartbroken, as you can imagine. But their relationship was awful. They didn't hug, kiss, or even hold hands. When it got to around May (Year 9 this is), basically I went to her house for her Sister's 18th, n Scott was there. But her parents compared me and Scott, and directly told Becky that she'd be doing better off with me, which got her thinking.
A few days after that, her and Scott split up. But then she got upset because she didn't think she'd make the right decision. I basically gave up all hope at that point, and I was trying to get her and Scott back together. Becky found out about this, and was overwhelmed by how much I truly liked her, and so realised I would actually be a good boyfriend.


On 2nd June 2006, we got together. A lot of things happened that day, because we were all at my friend's house with a lot of booze, so we were all raving and stuff - Twas a day I'll never forget. And so we were happily together. We had a lot of arguments from April 2007 onwards, and when July came I thought I liked someone else (Vicky McKibben). And so I broke up with Becky. Big mistake, as the feelings for Vicky weren’t close to being as strong as what I had for Becky. I think it must’ve been annoyance by the arguments that made me forget how much I had.


I realised what I had done wrong, very quickly, and I tried to ask for forgiveness, but as you can imagine, nothing was gonna stop her from being that upset. It took me 3 months to build up the trust between us again, and I ended up literally begging her for forgiveness before she gave in and realised how truly sorry I was.


We got together again soon after that, and spent another long spell of time together. Now's when the story gets interesting. After doing everything in possibility to prove that we truly loved each other, our future seemed destined to be with each other. On Christmas Day 2007, she gave me a book of memories, with photos, quotes from letters I'd sent her etc. I was literally crying of happiness when she gave it to me.


Now, knowing this, you'd think everything was fine? Apparently not. On the 31st December, I went away on holiday for three days. That's all it took. In those three days, she was seeing another guy. Only being friendly, but that friendship caused Becky to develop feelings for him. I didn't know this, of course, until I got back, eager to spend more time with the one I love, when she said she wanted a break with me. I kicked up a fuss, naturally, but nothing worked.


On the 10th January 2008, she split up with me. I could tell you the exact time and place if you'd like, but I'm not going to bore you with details. On the day, it didn't hit me, but it soon did in the next few days. I was mortified. However, we were still acting as if we were still going out - no-one even realised we had split up until we told them.


Shortly after this, I see her Bebo page. I notice that some guy, "Rory W", is posting on her Bebo etc, and she was posting back with more personal replies. I was so upset that day I literally saw no point to life, I was literally on the point of suicide - That's how bad I was feeling. Obviously I couldn't go through with that sort've stuff, or I wouldn't be here telling you this.


She got together on the 27th January 2008, and has been with him since. She had sex with him on the 30th. Merely 3 days after getting together with him, and only 2 weeks after splitting up with me. I was once again mortified. She had done with him what took me 17 MONTHS to get her to do with me. I had to build up a wall of trust with her - Yet this stranger did it in 3 days?


We weren't friends after that incident. Not until recently, in the past 2 weeks. After all, I spent every night in January and February crying. I couldn't stop myself - I was so passionately in love with her that I couldn't concentrate on anything else. However, in recent times, we've been talking again. She didn't want to talk to me until now. My passionate love turned to passionate hate in 4 months, until we started to talk, an to be friends again, it felt so good.


But she was singing in our end-of-year assembly 2 weeks ago. It was the same song that she sung that made me fall in love with her in the first place, literally 3 years ago. And it worked again. Becky is still happily with Rory (so it seems). So now I'm here, and I'm remembering just what I had with her. I'll never be together with her anymore, but I've learned to take the good things from that relationship, and to improve upon the bad things with whoever might next take away my heart.

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Whilst I'm here, hello to all my old mates of TeenHut (Mayank, AssassinRow, Rockability. There are others but I really can't remember names).

The Shotgun.

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The Shotgun Hitman
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hello I remember you breaking up with Becky, but then there was another girl who you took out to dinner or something?

anywya I don't advise acting on more of those feelings towards Becky. She seems to have moved on but your still stuck in the past. Being friends seems greta but more than thta just seems it will cause more trouble. Plus she's been with this other guy for what like 6 months now? don't try ruining it for her.

Ohhh wait I remember! you cheated on Becky didn't you? then didn't know whether to tell her, I can't remember that much...

I'm not acting on those feelings, it's just one of those moments where I remember what we had. And you're not meant to remember the bad things lol! And it's been 4 months with him. I'm not planning on wrecking it in the least, I would never intentionally make her unhappy.

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The Shotgun Hitman
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well i hope you get over her. you should move on

I think y'all are missing the point of why I posted this. I wrote that to relieve myself, and it just turned out to be quite informative. I just thought it'd be an interesting read lol.

I am basically over her, I have new girls in my sights, but I still like her - naturally. 19 months is a large section of anyone's life, especially at my age.

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The Shotgun Hitman
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Hmm, I think maybe just try and focus on other things? Hopefully in time you should get over her...

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