Hi

Ive been debating whether or not to do this for quite a while now. Theres this girl whom ive been friends with for more than 4 years now. Ive always had a small crush on her but its got a lot bigger lately (from around 6 months till now).
Sometimes we have been closer and sometimes more distant. Right now, we are pretty close, even though I just switched to another school. I had considered talking to her about how I feel, but just had not got the guts to tell her. Right now, its KILLING ME and I really really want to, though I dont know how she would react. We are good friends, but I dont really know more details about her relationships, I only know she doesnt have a boyfriend currently.
Im pretty confused, since she sometimes gives me "hints" (or at least I think so, gawd its confusing). She sometimes holds my hand, hugs me and even mouth kissed once or twice (though she was a bit drunk haha ). The thing is, I dont know if shes like that with all her good friends, and I really dont want to ruin the friendship or make it awkward. The thing thats worse is that Im simply not interested in anyone else. Whenever Im mildly interested in another girl, I instantly think of my friend and dont even try anything with the other girl.

What should I do?? I know that I should decide for myself. Should I risk it? I dont know if she would understand or not. Im > < this close to talking to her this friday... Im probably venting more than anything here

Thanks

awww...dude Im in the same position...but I was told dating your best friend if you broke up with them youll still be friends...but I dont fully trust that...so I dont know what you could do...Im confused myself....

if you are so close then you can talk to her. you guys are mature enough.....you won't break your friendship just like that.

Well in your situation, I'm just like the girl. I've had a thing for my best friend since we met, but I waited for him, to see how he felt. Turns out he liked me just as much too. Go for it definately. You can't lose anything just by letting her know how you feel. From experience, nothing's better than dating your best friend. But it's what happens in the end that you should worry about. Definately tell her...you never know, she could feel the same way, just think about the risk of losing the friendship if anything happens

how would you recommend me to tell her? Maybe going straight to the point would freak her out.. What I was thinking was maybe asking casually for a kiss at a party (not in a serious mood). If I get it on the cheek, I would not go any further. In the mouth, wait a while and then talk to her. No kiss, then probably shes telling me to f°°k off

thanks a lot for the advice

I don't think that's a good idea. If my best friend asked me to kiss her in a joking type of way, I would most definitely not kiss her on the lips. (Obviously for you it's the other way around, but point made.)

is no longer worth it anymore... that shit sucks when it bottoms out.

well, she has done it before....
oh, and what do you mean with "bottom out"?