Please read the whole thing.
I will seriously love you forever if you help me.




This isnt going to be like Marcus's thread and my question be what kind of gas to get.
But I do think I should give you some background info on the situation first.

okay so this boy and I went out for over a year. He broke up with me and told me he didnt love me anymore.
He got with another girl. Not even a month after we broke up.
Then I find out that he lied to me the whole time about being a virgin, because he really wasnt and he lost it when he was fourteen.
Well I got into a relationship, and was trying to move on.
Then he comes back and tells me that he still loves me and never stopped.
So we both break up with who we were with to get back together.
At the end of the school year we werent "technically" going back out because he hadnt asked me, but we both just decided to tell people that we were.
Well then I got grounded.
And he texted me almost everyday saying he loves me and all that.
We used to have night talks every night before we went to bed so I wrote in this book instead, kinda like I was talking to him but he would just read it later.
Corny I know.
Well then for some reason he completely stops texting me and whatever.
And even when I got off grounding he basically ignored me.
We talked about what we wereee and he told me that "he wanted to get to know me again".
But basically hasnt talked to me sense.
SOOOO... I just decided to drop it, Im not going to deal with it anymore.

Im still going to give him the book I wrote everything in, but I wrote one last entry in it. My goodbye to him basically. And I want you guys to tell me what you think. If its good or if I should add anything.


Jayson,
I hope reading all of this made you sick to your stomach. I gave you a second chance, actually like a 42nd chance. And you screwed it up...again. What about me could you just not love anymore? I tried giving you everything, Jayson. But I guess everything was never enough for you. I honestly dont know why I cant not hate you, when you give me so many reasons why I should. I honestly though this time was going to be different. That you really did love me.. And wanted to be with me. All I want to know is, what happened? Why did you text me "off to Fresno babe, I love you." And then you come back and completely ignore me. What changed your mind at football camp? Thanks for the false hope. I was trying so damn hard not to get my hopes up. But I did, you knew I would, and you shot me down once again. I will always love you, we both know that. But your chances end here. Im done playing your games. I was hoping you would figure out what you wanted before it was too late, but I guess even that was too much to ask. "I want to get to know you again." Jayson, we both know Im not the one who has changed. Im still the girl that I thought you fell in love with. I have changed a little bit though, I have stopped giving you chances. Stopped letting you walk all over me, andpicked up the pieces of my heart that you threw in my face. I love you Jayson. But I have taken back whats left of my heart, and Im ready for someone else to put it back together. I am no longer looking to you to be that someone anymore. Because you have shown me that you simply cant.

Love,
JodiBear.


I know its long, but please read it all.
Should I give it to him?
Should I change anything?
Advice?

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I don't know. I woudln't give it to him. It's just one more thing for him to be able to use against you. He's not worth the time and effort. And the more effort you put in, the more he'll think he can just come back to you again.

Burn the book, and just forget about him.

I thought it might be kind of like a slap in the face though.
Because all the previous entries in the book are me talking about how much I love him and how happy I am that we are getting another chance again.
And then BAM.
There is that.

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I dunno, its up to you. If I was in your position I can just picture my ex reading the book and laughing at it with the guys over a few beers. That's all.

Well, Im not sure. Because he has even written me poems before. So he can be just as mushy. Haha.

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I think you should give it to him.
He has walked all over you, taken advantage or your feelings, and trashed and scattered your heart.

I think you stated it perfectly.
Don't let his charming ways change your mind about him.
The note shows that you have made up your thoughts about him, and that you are not ever going to give him another chance, do don't let him back into your heart.

You don't deserve to get hurt like that again, Jodi.

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I know.
I love him so much.
But I know that I have to let go. Or Im just going to keep getting hurt over and over.

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Haha in that case, definitely go for it.

Give it to him, smash his little poem writing heart, lol. It's giving him a taste of his own medicine that's for sure.

I kinda want to give it to him. And have him read until that last couple of pages that I wrote that out on, and then make him read it out loud to me.

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If he acted like that much of an ass and you took it, you should give it to him. If it were me there would be a "oh yeah, and don't forget I have a cleaver waiting to chop your balls off and shove them down your throat" somewhere in there, but hey that's just me.

HOWEVER, if you're not completely sure you want it to be over, re think this. (I know, you're thinking no more second chances, but one day you might consider giving him the benefit of the doubt)

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Welcome to my world... Hold on to Your Sanity or Let Go of Your Fears

I already did give him the benefit of the doubt.
And he threw it back in my face with "I want to get to know you again".

So Im done.

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obekaybe, then you're all set JodiBear

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Welcome to my world... Hold on to Your Sanity or Let Go of Your Fears

I want to stay friends, but thats all really up to him.

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