I think you're unhappy with yourself, not necessarily your relationship. However, your unhappiness could be detrimental to your relationship. Considering your situation, it's understandable that you're not happy. You have to find things to do that make your day seem more productive. Maybe you can exercise or take up a hobby. Keep looking for a job, but do other things throughout your day. You don't need money to just hangout with friends or even your boyfriend for that matter. Go for a walk, hangout at a park, stay in and just talk and spend time with each other. Even doing something a little different in your day will make you feel a little better. Just remember that things won't always be like this. Be appreciative of what you do have and try not to take your frustration out on your boyfriend. Instead of arguing, tell him how you're feeling and calmly talk it out.

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Well, keep talking to your guidance and possibly go on anti-depressants. They helped me ALOT and I don't regret taking them at all. And being a 'bitch' to your boyfriend won't help anything. You are just taking your frustration and anger out on him, think about it, do you really want to do that? Think before you Act.

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