It seems to me like your doctor is assuming that you have the typical pre-natal depression, and that it will blow over with just sleep and whatnot, and your therapist is giving the usual answers that they have, through their training and experienced, realised seem to work with minor cases. However, I have been through self-harm and, in my past, suicidal thoughts, and - well, other things similar to you, we'll say. One can only truly understand a situation like this when one has experienced it themselves - I'm not saying I know more than a therapist or a doctor, all I'm saying is that those who are wise learn from the experienced.
Now - there's not really any available medication as far as I know - and if there was I wouldn't accept it in your situation. The fact that you're pregnant limits this a lot. But we know that there's not that medication will do right? And let's face it, the normal "get some sleep", "listen to some music", and "take a walk" aren't exactly helping much either. Now, I do think that you should continue with these things, but I think that more things must be introduced on top of those in order to help you get through this difficult time. I know that what you are going through is difficult hun, and we will get you through this
And hey, if you want, you can come back here regularly and give us updates, so that we can give you further advice through the stages, and help you get through this step by step. You can contact me through private messaging or the Support Leader Private Section if this is the case.
Okay, well you seem to be all right with resisting the urge to cut, which is in itself a great achievement, and you should feel very good for this. Now, suicidal thoughts don't just disappear - depression comes from a cause. There is something in your life that you are lacking at the moment and you need to replenish it in order to restore balance to your mind, especially during the stressful time of being pregnant. (By the way, all due respect, but your boyfriend was an ass for leaving). Now - every person has their basic needs first of all. Food, drink, sleep, shelter etc - I'm sure you have all of these already, so that's a start. On top of this, you need to have some form of financial income that sufficiently covers your living costs overall. So you're fine so far.
One clear problem is the fact that you have recently moved to a new area, and you have not yet met anyone. I think that you should in fact get out and socialise as much as you can - socialisation alone may indeed help you to diminish your depression to a certain extent. The human mind requires us to be noted and belong to a particular group as one of our needs, and therefore socialisation is essential.
Next, you need to do things to keep your own self-esteem up. It doesn't matter what it is, just try to make little achievements in your day-to-day life, look back on your past successes, and look into the future and where you plan to be soon with any accomplishments that you wish to make. This will help you, because they give you hope and enthusiasm, which is a key aspect against depression.
Now - sleeping problems. So, you're lying awake at night thinking about what's wrong right? Well, you need to find good ways of getting yourself tired and asleep. Reading before bed always helps. You may wish to purchase some olbas oil too - this is a kind of oil that you use to clear a blocked nose and stuff, but if you rub a few drops on your forehead, a tiny bit below your nose, and some on your chest, then it will give a nice sensation and definitely helps to sleep at night. On top of this, hot chocolate or horlics (sp), or some other form of warm, milky drink can help you feel drowsy as well.
Now - if you ever find yourself in a heightened state of stress, then try what is actually a form of meditation - but...not. You see, when life feels complicated, then you must go back to the most basic aspect of life - breathing. This enables you to focus. So; lie back in a quiet place, perhaps on your sofa or bed. Open a window and let a cool breeze through. Just lie there, completely silent, and breathe. Breathe in through your nose, for three seconds, out through your mouth for three seconds. In for three seconds, out for three seconds. Nose, mouth. Half way through take some of that olbas oil I mentioned (you should be able to purchase it from a pharmacy), rub a little under your nose, and carry on breathing in. Don't think about what's bothering you, don't think about the suicidal thoughts, concentrate with all your might on the three seconds of each breath. Through concentrating so hard on it, you'll put the problems to the back of your mind, and by breathing slowly and steadily like I described, you'll slow down your panic and you will focus and calm yourself. Trust me, it works.
Now, long-term. Like I said, you need to start socialising more, and you need to find some form of support for you and your child; whatever that support is, make sure that it is continuous and positive in every way. You're going to have a tough time ahead, albeit for the blessing of a child, and you will need as much support as you can find. Also, whatever has happened with your family, you should try to fix it, or at least ignore it for a short amount of time, and if possible get them to do the same, so that you can have them on your side as well.
Don't forget, if you ever need more advice to get through all of this step-by-step, then contact me or one of the other support leaders, and show them this piece of advice, so they'll know that you're in need of further and consistent help.
I wish you the best of luck.
Much love dude.
~Anastasia Mikhailovishna Salikhova.
P.S my congratulations on your soon to be little girl
I truly wish you the best of luck - you have chosen a beautiful name for her