I don't know

Blueminded88 · 04-02-2008, 03:37 PM

Hey everyone

i'm knew here

when i'm feeling down witch is almost all the time i like to write.. sometimes what i write doesn't make sence cuz i just write whateva i'm thinking an i think about alot... a few hours ago i wrote something an here it is.....( it may not make sence but like i said i just write whats in my head )
i'm not emo i just feel like it sometimes but before you call someone emo think about why that person is like that so instead of labeling someone think about the cause first

i woke up today like every other day staired at the wall for a sec an wonder about the new day.
i think maybe...maybe today will be different, maybe i'll smile ( for real )... maybe i can be me today.
maybe i can go... maybe i can try.

i think

i sat on the edge of my bed thinking...thinking about today, thinking about tomorrow,thinking about
the next day.. i stair at my self in the mirror i look in my eyes i see pain, i see ugly, i see nothing.

i hurt

who am i? i don't know..sometimes i think i do i'm confused ( i want to be ) why can't i just show
you. i want to so bad but i'm scared i'm scared of the out come of it.. will it be ok? please tell me
i want to know

i'm scared

i go out today yea... i look around i see people.. do they see me? i feel eyes staring me down is
this a good thing? i look down an keep walking i try an tune out all voices ( i walk ) i try an be
nice, funny, good you know all that an yea so far i have been

i want

i see someone my age or close to it.. could this be ( someone ) i look i smile a little but i'm
unnoticed... am i here? i don't know i just i mean whats wrong? i want to know damnit please
maybe i can fix it

i'm angry

i go home ( home ) i sit in my room in my chair just looking around watching my birds sing
see the hamsters sleeping i turn my computer on.. " what a thrill " maybe i'll get that email i've
been wanting to see so bad i find nothing but spam mail *sigh* maybe tomorrow

i wonder

time for bed i lay looking at the wall day dreaming of a life i wish i had.. drama i wish i was in
people i wish i knew.. people i wish that wanted me, love i wish i had, a person i wish was me.

i cry

jordybaby8 · 04-02-2008, 04:27 PM

AirlaFlair · 04-04-2008, 11:19 AM

keep writing

justme123 · 04-12-2008, 01:56 PM

I think it was pretty good. not like IT itself was good-its structure-if u know what i mean! Keep writing and posting, your pretty good.