Hi.
I self harm and i have no idea why.
I'm not depressed. My life is good, i mean it's not like i don't have problems it's just that mine aren't HUGE problems like i'm not some starving kid in africa or anything, i have a computer and a roof over my head etc so obviously life's ok.

And i self harm where noone can see it and noone ever does see it so it's not like i'm doing it for attention.

I've been self harming on and off since i was like 10 and i have no idea why.

I really want to stop because i know that it's not right and i don't even particularly enjoy it when i'm actually doing it so i really have no reason to do it so why can't i quit?

The only way i've ever successfully quit anything is smoking which i did by burning myself everytime i thought of cigarettes.
Sooo quitting selfharming by burning myself really wouldn't work because i'd be self harming to quit selfharming.

Any ideas?
I think like as soon as i figure out why i do it i'll be able to stop or figure out how to stop but i just don't know why i do it.

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i was thrown before the court of canes
tossed my soul to the furnace flames
where all my heroes had been slain, exiled, or put in prison

It's hard to tell why. I still feel the urge to cut/scratch myself even though I'm perfectly happy and I have been for a while now. It just pops into my mind. People say it's not addicting, but there's definately a mental addiction to it.

I quit by pressure to quit by my close friends and my doctor. Maybe you could tell a friend you trust, and have him as your check. Instead of being burnt every time you give in, you'd be lectured and yelled at. :P

i would help but i never know what to say i dont self halm so i dont know how to help

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You should see someone. A counsellor Doctor? I went to see a doctor they putting me towards a phycitrust. Even though atm Im happy they wanna make sure of it.

Try writing things down or putting an elastic band around your wrist, and pulling it.
Stress balls are good, another thing my counsellor said is that you could draw on your body in red pen so it looks like you have harmed, and your mind thinks it has. But that wouldnt work for me because i need the pain. But you could give it a try.

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I can't tell my friends, lol. They'll think i'm insane.
I mean that idea would be logical but i'm not ready to have people know. They'd probably laugh at me.

I don't trust doctors.
I've tried the elastic band thing but it doesn't work unless it hurts barree amounts and i think that kind of defeats the object because then i have to explain why i have red marks and raw skin around my wrist.
&everybody thinks i'm insane.
But tarr for trying

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i was thrown before the court of canes
tossed my soul to the furnace flames
where all my heroes had been slain, exiled, or put in prison

Well you will get no where unless you talk to someone.

You cant fight it alone.

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At the risk of sounding cliché and generic:
A true friend will stick by you through anything. If you need help you shouldn't be afraid to tell a close friend. But I can understand why you'd be afraid to tell.

If you wanna talk in more detail about your problem, I could try to help you out more. Send me a private message if you're interested, I have screen name on yahoo, msn, and aim.

By hurting yourself to get yourself to stop smoking has created a pattern in your head to hurt yourself. Even though you don't want to your mind still thinks that it is a necessity.

Try picking up a hobby to keep yourself occupied.

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You can fight it alone. I did. I get what you're saying, it's good to talk etc. But I have fought with myself two or three times concerning self harm (cutting, burning and near-alcoholism). It's hard, but you have to be determined to fighting it and not letting your inner demons get a hold of your feelings.

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Honestly, a lot of your friends probably have felt what you have before. They probably have been in your shoes at some point in your life. To my surprise, my friend cuts herself, I never got the courage to tell her that I did till long after I stopped, but they know what you're feeling, or something similar.

This might sound dumb, but there might be some truth to it: you might be cutting yourself out of bordum. I know that when I get bored, I eat. Eatting is my escape when I'm bored, and for you, that might be what cutting is. Try to keep yourself entertain with something, and see what happens.

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I don't have to talk to someone.
What goods that gonna do except make me worry barrre amounts about what they're thinking of me?


No friend is a true friend. And how would i say it "Yo, comin out friday night btw i self harm?"
lol, somehow i don't think that'll go down well.

and it's not that big a deal it's just making me abit you know, annoyed.
thankiess

I think i do it as a punishment. Can you do that? Idk like i tend to want to do it more when someone's seen a scar or when i've thought about smoking or when i've just eaten or when i've let something get to me. I think.

I might. Thanks

LOL i'm not insane, i don't have "inner demonss"
but yee i get ya tarr

I really can't tell my friends. They're perfect i really don't want to do anything to mess up our relationshipss.

but tarr anyway

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i was thrown before the court of canes
tossed my soul to the furnace flames
where all my heroes had been slain, exiled, or put in prison

i understand

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