So i met this girl, and things were going really well. My feelings were so strong for her that i feel i'm in love with her.

Being 16 i can't really say i know what love is, but i've never gotten this depressed about any of my previous girlfriends.

All my life i have despised emo's. Cutting for attention. Shit could be worse, they could live in iraq and get shot at every day. Live in a box and have no food or water.

I have all this. Except my 'love'.

When we broke up, she cut herself. Right on her side with a razor blade. She says it helped her get by, through this stressful shit.

now i'm sittin here 12:30 in the morning on a tuesday and i'm holding a razor in my hand and i want to slide it across my wrist.

She took my virginity, she took my heart, she took my soul, and instead of holding onto it she threw it on the ground and stomped on it.

We've talked. We hung out today actually, even yesterday. But i don't think she's getting back together with me. I've already been replaced by some nick asshole. She plays with my heart - says she loves me. Says she doesn't love nick, and thinks that on some level me and her are meant to be together. 'soulmates' she said. Yet she refuses to dump nick.

When we talked yesterday our faces were so close to each other, i thought we were going to kiss. I told her to her face i wanted to, and she said she wanted me to, but i couldn't if she was just going to go back to nick. Today when we saw each other we were leaning in slowly to kiss, but instead i turned my head away because i can't put myself through this.

She's fuckin around with me and i can't continue doing this. I'm on my third pack of smokes and that shit just aint cuttin it. I heard coke helps, but it's common sense not to do any of that hardcore shit, so instead i just want to cut myself.

i can't pull myself together to do it. I just sit and cry, but don't do anything. So far all i've done is cut a deep wound into my thumb to see how sharp the razor actually was, big thing i accomplished there.

and of course i have the least supportive parents ever. the night we broke up i hooked up a 360 i bought (same day). She was supposed to come over after school and we were gonna chill and play guitar hero or some shit, but instead we broke up. so i sat there playing my xbox, and my mom knew i was crying, but instead of being supportive she told me that 'she better not see that shit there in the morning. she wants it cleaned up or i'm in grounded'. i skipped school today to sit at home and cry. cry and smoke, it was a combination between the two. Then when i saw her i told her she had to make a decision by tomorrow (technically today) who she wants to be with because i can't keep holding my shattered heart out there forever, because it's killing me, and she told me she needed more time. it's been almost a week! I can't wait any fuckin longer or i'm going to have a mental break down. I'm already at the point where i'm thinking about cutting, and if any of you knew me, I'm the last person that would even think about doing this kinda thing.

i don't know what to do. should i try it? I know most people would rather someone not cut, but i need help.

after 40 minutes i decided to cut my side.

ow. but i feel a bit better. kinda shaky because i was so nervous.

id rather do coke, then cut my own wrist.
if you need to relax, i suggest weed as it is way better then cutting your wrists or doing coke as it is not bad for your health or anything like that.

but anyways back to your ex, if i were you i would tell her straight up and refuse to wait any longer. this just might be what i would do but think about it, she broke up with you, found another man and is unsure? she sounds like she isnt confused, just taking advantage of you.

but hey, thats from another persons point of view right?

Walk away from her and don't look back. You already let her back in numerous times so she thinks she can get away with doing that.Simple.

I know you'll find it "impossible" to just wallk away but it'd be better for you in the long run, either that or tell her she makes up her mind today, else she's lost you...

She has what? hours to think about this,how much time does someone need?

Time is a great healer...

no1 is worth cuting your self for, i suggest just try n go out more, be with your mates more so u can keep ur mind of things and jus relax, did you know its all in the mind, u gta be string n be happy n remember what I said, life is for enjoying..

The only advice i have is, people will take advantage of you and they will try to hurt you for thier own joy. Dont give in to the temptation to start doing drugs and stuff. Only do drugs when you are happy, cause a good friend of mine did some drugs when he was depressed and he committed suicide. But really, Just let time sort it all out.

With the slew of "How do I puke?" "How do I cut?" "How do I shot web?" type posts, I don't know if people are being serious or just joking.

If you're serious, then yeah, obviously taking up an addition (coke, cutting, smoking, drinking) isn't the answer.

You need to get over her. Every strong relationship will hurt when it ends, eventually you'll get to the point where you can recover quickly-- but it will hurt until you get over her. I think as long as you realize that you WILL feel pain, but the pain WILL end, you can get through it. Like running a long distance run, if you know there's an end in site, you can make it, but if it feel like it will never end, you're more apt to just give up and walk.

Many people don't want to give up their feelings for the person, or their depression because of the person, because they feel like it will be a sign of betrayal in the event that he/she comes back. But that's not going to happen. You've got to move on.

Do NOT cut or do coke. Don't do anything that you wouldn't do if you were 100% normal (happy wise.) This could leave you feeling regret or guilt. Someone like her isn't worth your tears or your blood.. Do something time consuming like taking a walk while listening to music, calming music. Ask your buddies to come shoot hoops with you. Do anything that occupies the brain and isn't harmful. I would tell your ex-girlfriend that you need 2 weeks to a month of no talking to get over everything. Hope everything works out for you.

now i just feel ridiculous.

we're back together, but i wish i'd never have cut

Its really upsetting that you had to do that to yourself. This girl does not deserve you, nor should she endorse self harm as a way to deal with issues. In fact, NOT self harming is far more couragous than cutting

I cut myself for first time last night. Didn't help me feel better a single bit. Instead I'm just gonna play my guitar =]

Why did you do it?

i dont see how pain would help u get over a break up o.o

Cutting is also freeer than drugs -.-

I quit cutting for a time and ended up seriously considering turning to coke.

And man do I know how it feels to be in that position.