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Old 05-28-2008, 12:40 AM   #1
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I'm Going To Kill Myself

This is not a thread for you to talk me out of it. I am going to kill myself. I've thought it through and through, and there's nothing left for me.

I want to share it with someone and maybe talk with someone before I do it. I've set a date in the near future to do it but I'm not sharing it with anyone. I live in the United States, that's all you need to know.

My childhood was terrible and all of my family are dead. I have an uncle who's dying and a cousin left, that's it. I've had all of the worst luck in the world, and recently my only form of solace (my best friend) killed himself, so I have nothing left now.

My head is so messed up, I have no hope for the future. I have a 40 page diary I've written that made sense at the time but doesn't make sense anymore. Everything is making more sense now I have a goal and I'm actually becoming happy (well, as happy as I can be I guess) knowing that it'll all be over soon.

The world really is a cruel place. I DID NOTHING WRONG. WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAPPEN TO ME? There is no God. I'm going to kill myself because I hate this world!!!
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Old 05-28-2008, 12:48 AM   #2
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Re: I'm going to kill myself.

Well you posted this in an advice section and you're saying you want to talk to someone about it so I think maybe there is something there's stopping you from doing it? It sounds like you've had a very rough time in life so far, but this isn't it and I think there's always hope for the future if you try and get into the right attitude.

I can't say I give especially good advice, but if you want, you can talk to me.
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Re: I'm going to kill myself.

Nah I've set everything up, I'm definitely going to do it but I just thought it'd be nice to talk to people before I did it. I've got a pretty painless method of doing it and stuff, it's just waiting for the date now. (significant, it's my birthday so I'll be exactly 19 when I do it)
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Re: I'm going to kill myself.

Well what did you want to gain from talking to people?
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Re: I'm going to kill myself.

I dunno I want to know how hitler felt...
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Re: I'm going to kill myself.

I think that this is one of life's cruel and horrible tests to see who can hack it.

You may feel that you have nothing to live for but maybe instead of letting this demon beat you. You should live to beat it. If you overcome this you will feel a lot better and once you have beaten it - you can help other kids overcome it too and then you will feel like you have a purpose again.

Don't give up. Find something to live for. Just because you haven't found it yet doesn't mean there isn't anything.

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Re: I'm going to kill myself.

More bad stuff will happen.
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I dunno I want to know how hitler felt...
Well maybe you'd be better going to a WWII history forum and asking there, because I don't really know, sorry.

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Possibly, but there's also a chance that things could get better. If you think this is your lowest point then the only way you can go is up. Did you have any goals you wanted to achieve when you were younger?
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Possibly, but there's also a chance that things could get better. If you think this is your lowest point then the only way you can go is up. Did you have any goals you wanted to achieve when you were younger?
I always wanted to be strong, I got a weightlifting set and everything but everything distracted me from doing it. I recently pawned it to pay the rent where I'm living but now I have no job so in 2 months or so my savings run out, so I'll be kicked out. Luckily I wont be around for 2 months and my landlord is going to have a lovely surprise in one of his bathrooms.
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Re: I'm going to kill myself.

Well then you have something to work towards. How possible is it for you to get another job?
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Re: I'm going to kill myself.

I can't go outside anymore
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Re: I'm going to kill myself.

Erm, okay. Why not?

How possible would it be for you to get a job if you could go outside?
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Re: I'm going to kill myself.

idk. i can't go out because quite a few people are after me recently.
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Re: I'm going to kill myself.

Well I don't think you've got anything to lose by leaving the house. And a good thing that could happen if you did would be earning some money to buy your weights back.

There are people on this site pretty much all the time and they're mostly friendly, if you want to talk to them, if it makes you feel less isolated.
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