I've been feeling really depressed constantly for about 7-8months now, I didn't feel like I could talk to my mum, but I knew I needed help so I took an overdose on paracitamol during school, I didn't want to die, though I wouldn't have cared if I did, I just wanted my mum to realise so that I could get help, I went to the hospital when I was getting bad pains a few days later as first I told my mum it was just a stomach bug making me sick so I slept it off, they gave me some thing to releive the pain and reffered me to a psychiatrist, I had one session with her but she didn't help she was just being nosey about my family if i took drugs, have had sex, all information I didn't feel comfortable talking about with a stranger so I never went back to see her.

My mum took me out of school for six months (and im in my GCSE year) so she had to send me back to do course work and stuff, I have seen doctor but I don't think he really beleived me because I didn't have any real reasons, I don't even know why I feel like this, everyday I wake up and feel like I can't get out of bed and I look out of the window at the terrible British weather and feel like I can't phsyicaly get up. I have no ambitions and nothing to aim for in life so i see no point anyway im not going to archeive anything so why even bother.

My mum and my Dr had a talk and now she beleives im just lazy and attention seeking, she doesnt see that I need help, I just want to see some one and get help but it seems impossible like everyones against me. Because i'm not doing this for attention, does she really think that I want to feel like this, I have lost nearly all my friends because ive hardly ever left the house.

But now she has started me at a new school, I dont know any one there and compared to my other school which was brand new in a "posh" area this ones terrible, populated mainly by chavs and bullys.

It feels like things can't get any worse but everytime i think that they always do.

What can I do to get help?
I dont want to be like this.
I have been constantly yo-yo dieting for no reason as im already a british size 6, but its the only thing in my life I can feel proud of is when I lose a few pounds, but recently that hasnt even been helping me.

Does your school have a counceler? I think you should go there because if you're feeling depressed, he/she can help you find the right kind of help. If it is affecting your schoolwork the school will send you to a therapist.

I am amazed your doctor and mother concluded there is nothing serious going on. Depression is heavy stuff. A doctor, of all people, should know that there does not have to be a reason for depression. Your life does not have to be tragic for you to feel the way you're feeling. Depression is a chemical inbalance in the brain. After you find a counceler, I strongly suggest you have him/her give your mom the facts of depression.

Good luck! I hope this helped and I hope you find the help you need.

Depressive disorders make you feel exhausted, worthless, helpless, and hopeless. Such negative thoughts and feelings make some people feel like giving up. You should realize that these negative views are part of depression, and typically do not accurately reflect your life situation. Negative thinking fades as treatment begins to take effect. Psychotherapy, especially cognitive psychotherapy, is specifically designed to change the negative thinking associated with depression.
In the meantime:

• Do not set difficult goals for yourself, or take on additional responsibility.
• Break large tasks into small ones, set some priorities, and do what you can as you can.
• Do not expect too much from yourself too soon, as this will only increase your feelings of failure.
• Try to be with other people; it is usually better than being alone.
• Force yourself to participate in activities that may make you feel better.
• Try engaging in mild exercise, going to a movie, a ball-game, or participating in religious or social activities.
• Don't overdo it or get upset if your mood is not greatly improved right away. Feeling better takes time.
• Do not make major life decisions, such as changing jobs, getting married or divorced, without consulting others who know you well and who have a more objective view of your situation. In any case, it is advisable to postpone important decisions until your depression has lifted.
• Do not expect to snap out of your depression. People rarely do. Help yourself as much as you can, and do not blame yourself for not being up to par.
• Remember, do not accept your negative thinking. It is part of the depression and will disappear as your depression responds to treatment.
• Get help from a professional. No matter how much you want to beat it yourself, a psychologist can help you recover faster.

In my previous school you had to be reffered to go to the school connexions counciler, but my new school has got an open connexions, but every one knows when you go to one of these meetings as you have to show your appointment card to your teacher before you can go and I'm already having a hard time without every one in the school having another reason for them to be nasty.
I have had the conversation with the connexions worker over and over again in my head, but I don't want them coming to the same conclusion and labeling me a problem child.
Though I'll see if I can go in at lunch time then no one else will know, and have a session to see if it helps

I really think thats the best thing you can do. Sometimes depression feels too tough to handle without meds or some sort of professional help. Simply going in and saying "I think I have depression and its affecting the way I'm living." is just fine and right to the point. Explain to her that you'd like to get your life back on track, your mom is not helping you because she thinks you're just being lazy, and that you need help. If you feel like she wont take action, tell her you've had suicidal thoughts. If you share that with a counceler they are obligated BY LAW to do something about it.
But I dont think it'll come to that. I think just talking about how you feel (you have to be honest even if you're embarassed) will make him/her see whats going on.

The last thing you need is some half-assed advice from a counciler.

Councilers don't help. At all. Full stop.

They spend their time trying to understand you, but how can they? Even YOU don't understand.
What you need to do is pull yourself together. Set yourself an aim for the day, I know it sounds stupid but it actually works most of the time so long as it's not too ambitious. Think to yourself, ''today, I'm gonna get some nice clothes on and go to the shop.'' Then do it. And who cares if the weather's crap, it's always gonna be rubbish here in Britain, that's something that you can't change.
You can change your way of thinking though. It's hard in your state to think possitivley, but if you just start to think that way, then you could alter it even if it's only a slight change, or you have to force that frame of mind at first.
At this new school, don't let anyone be aware that you're feeling down, because as soon as people know, they start to treat you differently and then it's even harder for you to forget your problems as they'll always be a constant reminder of how you used to feel.
I think that the truest bit of advice is that no counciler will work. And neither will any tablets, because if you become reliant on anti-depressants, then when you are taken off them, your mood with swing to a yet more low level.

I hope I've helped you, take my advice, it's well researched and accumulated over experiences.
I hope you'll feel better soon, feel free to contact me or anything

Lea x

I know exactly how you feel. I was labled as an attention seeker, when my depression first started. My family didn't believe me, and just thought that I wanted to get off school. They also thought that I was just pretending to be depressed, because my sister was very ill, and I felt lonely.
It eventually got worse and worse, I refused to leave the house, I became paranoid and I didn't talk at all. They eventually reffered me to a therapist, who gave me anti depressants. It actually helped. I didn't believe that it would.

I think if you find a therapist who you can relate to and who you feel comfortable talking with really makes a difference. I talk to a counciler at my new school just now (I moved very recently), but I hate doing it because it makes me uncomfortable. The counciler doesn't seem to help and I hate going to see him (infact he makes me feel worse).

I hope this has helped somewhat [if you just cut through my rambling it kind of makes sense]

Urgh the dreaded labels.
I have always hated them.

Anyway... reading your post. I know how you feel but there were some aspects which confused me.
Your a british size 6 yet you want to lose more weight - there are many people that would love to be as thin as you but can't get there.
You also said that you don't know what's depressing you. Is there honestly nothing that you feel like could be a cause??
Parents? School? Homework/Coursework? Boyfriends? Relationships? Friends?

Something must have started it. Once you know what it is you can make things better by getting over it or solving it.
I know you have said you are losing friends because you don't go out.

I think that you should forget about being depressed. You have nothing to get depressed about.
Go out with the friends you have left. Have fun! Enjoy yourself. Don't let this depression get you down. Otherwise it will only get worse.

Hope this helps.