mum went into hospital 2 days ago , meaning i have to look after the house for 1 month! i am only 15 and i have been lumbered with a hell of alot of responsibilities in just 2 days! dad dosent do nothing around the house and my brothers never in! i caught my brother smoking dope IN HIS ROOM! and i made him spray his room and the landing before mum and dad get back! i saves his ass and still he shoutedat me for noticing it!

he told my mum and dad he stopped smoking yet i saw a receat in his room from 3 weeks ago saying he baught a packet of Drum (tobbaco) and theres loads of lighters around his room!

i am a good sister so i wouldent grass him up btu this just adds to all the other bad secrets people tell me! wich weighs me down!

my dad has ago at me because everything i do is never right for him!

yesterday , i left a pen on the sofa (infact i don't actualy know if it woz me in furst place) and he screamed at me calling me worthless and told me to grow up and it realy hurt so i went upstairs and dident think abotu what i was doing but i slashed all my legs , both of them and its real bad!

i spoke to my mentor today but i spent the whole hour crying so i couldent ask for advice on what to do as i have p.e tomorow and our school policy is to wear shorts!

so i told my form tutor and asked her what to do and she suggested we get a note from my head of year to let me wear trackies! so she walked down with me to go see him and he said that he thinks i should wear trackis but asked me how i feel about getting changed infront of everyone and i said i wouldent want to but theres the showers in the changing rooms so i will quickly put my trackies on in the showers! and he said he will send a message to me 5th lesson and 5th lesson came and i had no note. so i don't know what to do! i don't want to show my p.e teacher because what i did was shamefull!

sorry about the long post and that but i have to let this all out!

my 2 closest mates stabbed me in the back today! i told them as i thought i could trust them and one called me "mental" and the other said i was making my self ugly and said i was stupid!

i just don't feel like living no more! life dosent seem worth it no more and i feel i am so close to taking an overdose to get rid of everything!

what do i do?

hmm think of it like this your 15 and only have to put up with what 3 more years of it.....new friends can be made just be optimistic really things get better but only if your living. (I know it sounds cliche but hey it works)

If your brother smokes dope in his room, that's not your responsibility.

Yeah. All the good news when you turn 18 / finish high school.

But to move out immediately at 18, you'd need some $ beforehand, so getting a job at 16 doesn't hurt.

ehh, running away from the problem won't help. your parents are the most important people in your life, you need to be able to open up with them, or at least give it a try. It wasn't easy talking about me having panic attacks in school. I figured since I'm a guy, I just gotta be a man, and fight through it, but didn't help.


Good Luck!

Your father is an adult, he should be the one looking after your house and punishing your brother for smoking.

As for you, stop with the slashing of legs, it just makes a mess.

xx

First of all it DOES sound like you have had a lot dumped on you at a young age and I'm sorry for that second of all people shouldn't be calling you ungly I'm sure you are a great young person. Lastly you said you wanted to overdose how would your family feel about that the house just they DO care and that would hurt them.