I am thinking of committing suicide, because my life is worthless. No one wants to be with me, no one wants to go out with me. I am too ugly. I have no friends who want to be with me. I have too many awful nicknames.
Lets start from the begging . I know that this won’t be read by anyone because it is too long but...
While communist was rising up their power in Eastern Europe, the families who were wealthy, like mine, were considered as the number 1 state enemy. Everything was taken from us, except one house maid of wood and mud, at the peripheries of my home town. But let’s back on my story. I was born when communist was falling down in 1991. I was living in house made of mud which look is awful. In the neighborhood there was no children so I grew up alone. I am not very sociable boy but I succeed to make some friends. But someone found out where I am living then they started to make laughs of me. They were asking me where I am taking a bath (we didn’t had a bathroom so I was bathing in old fashion way). I was the only one with bad conditions for life because town where I live was very wealth so everyone could get a nice house or buy a flat, except the children and grandchildren’s of state enemies. Here is starting my pain, i am not well looking, I also had a car crash where I have lost 6 front teeth, after that it was i think at age of 14 I was teased by everyone, by everybody, i couldn’t keep any friends because of my horrible looking. I am not interested in anything, i hate everything that is connected with people although I would like to have a friends, but it is impossible. Also rumors that are spread among children do not allowed me to find any friend. I have one friend but we are not very close, he has his own life. I am also comparing myself with him, but he has too many advantages that I can’t stand when he has something that I don’t. While I was young at age of 7, I was vitiated by one man. It made me very unsure about y sexual orientation. One moment I am thinking that I am gay another I am completely straight. I can’t stand this life anymore. I am too afraid to be rejected. I am afraid of calling my only friend because I think he will say “do not bother me”. And also i have very bad relationship with my parents. I tried many time to kill myself, but I was always thinking on my mother. I even sent her in hospital because of my suicidal attentions. But i am also afraid of pain, i am searching for painless method of dying but I can’t find it. I do not know what to do but only thing that i know that i the day when i will die is very near. Please help me.

I don't see what's so wrong about writing a book about your life someday. In that case, committing suicide won't help.

Troll much?

ohhh i'll be your friend. to me looks don't count, it only matters if your a good person or not. I think you should be friendly with people if they reject you hold you head up high and walk away. it's thier loss they've lost a great friend NOt you.

keep smiling

Well, on this community, I'm sure many people wants to be your friend. =)

I don't think you should commiting suicide, beginn from zero and try to make new friends now. =)

I'm sorry for your depression and I understand your pain to some extent. But once you hit ground zero, the only way is up. You will meet others on this forum and make friends. But what I want you to do is watch a movie/book called 'The Secret'. It has helped me understand how to attract anything I want in my life. No magick voodoo included. lol

I would also like to refer you to a site called anybodythere.net, once you sign up and post at least 10 posts on any topic, you can get a free reading and even get some help from Manaia Puppy, who is an energy worker. He helps take away your negative energy and gives you positive. Many members there are also very helpful in understanding. The boards also includes stuff about the paranormal and sixth sense stuff if you're interesting.

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I think its fucking disgusting how few people have replied to this thread. this person is in probably more need that any teenager I've seen on here and there are 5-6 posts. whats wrong with you people?

My friend listen to me.

You have a good heart. You have a kind soul.

Look at the greatest people of this world.

Bill Gates grew up in a poor family with nothing...he is now the richest man in the world.

That guy in the wheel chair that talks through a keypad isn't a george clooney with his looks, yet he's the smartest man in the world.

History is full of people like yourself, persivereing through the hardest of times, through the darkest con of man to rise out of it triumphant and better than them.

Forget them. Those that cannot see past your features and into your heart are not worthy of your company.

Work, study hard and become smart. become passionate in it. motivate yourself and become somebody. do something people will love you for doing. open a charity, set up an orphange, anything. something like that that will get people to look at you and see something other than your face...force them to see your heart.

We care about you. We love you.

And your one friend...even your family that you dont have a great relationship withy...I am sure that if you were to die. You would cause them so much pain.

Think of your mother.

Be there for her. Dont kill yourself.

You live in a run down place. barely any money.

why? the money is spent on your education. thats why.

Your mother uses money to help you. Dont waste it.

become something and save your family from the life it is living. and then look back at those that scorned you and smile. Know that you are better than them.

You are a better person.

Live my friend. Please, live.

snap. i am in the same situation as u.but not so bad to commit suicide

you dont sound ugly too me x
beauty is kindness that shines from the inside out that is wat makes you beautiful x

i'll talk to you x

and if you dont want the pain of death then it means you still want to live x


just because your house isnt amazing doesnt make you who you are x

yourself makes you who you are x

and you have just had bad luck so far x

but if you think positive and turn everything around then who knows who you could become x

tell your mommy you love her everyday x

luv xx

ps allways here to help if need be x

that smartest man in the world is stephen king x

Well, not neccesarily Stephen King. He's the most honored man in horror literature, but he's not the smartest man in the world per se.

Anyways, back on subject - I definitely think you should have a more positive outlook on life, even if it's not that easy. Looks are deceiving, but there are tons of people who rather love you for you and not just for what's on the outside. Appreciate the little things you have, appreciate the life you were given; not that many people are lucky to have a home and a family like you.

Don't ever think about killing yourself, because I see potential in you to do something great. If you kill yourself, you're taking the easy way out and you're giving up on life when you can turn it around one step at a time.

Think about it.

All I can say is Don't kill yourself

Hey look. You are at a young age where hormones get the best of you. I know its hard to understand, but as a teenager you really cant control your emotions... Imagine a roller coaster. Childhood is the part where you rise to the top. Adolescence in some people's lives tend to be that one REALLY big drop. You might be scared of the drop, or you might love it! And the rest of the ride is all fun and enjoyable.

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Don't worry man, everything will turn out alright.

Don't commit suicide...

Best advice I ever got about overcoming depression- join a cult. Do your research first, make sure it isn't one that will make you kill yourself (defeats the purpose of joining to prevent suicide or steal all your money. You get a lot of attention and instant friends. Then, when you feel better you can change names, move across the country, and hope they never track you down.